I Apologize

AHHHHHH!  School started today...for David and I!!  I'm kinda freaking out about it. This last week has been super crazy trying to get everybody organized and ready for school to start.  We have been working out, but i forgot to take pictures most days, and not to mention not having any time to just sit down and relax.  I wrote before about how I am a perfectionist, I'm also a slight control freak and to go with that I have major anxiety.  I have always had it, I'm pretty sure my control freakiness is due to my anxiety.  I get stressed about everything, even social situations (church, work parties, meeting new people... especially if there are large groups.)  Right now I'm stressed about taking care of two kids, (me) going to school full time, and my husband going to school part time and working full time.  It just doesn't feel like there is enough time in the day to get homework done and still be a good parent, wife, and take care of the apartment.  Especially since we are not putting our children into day care, having a nanny or a babysitter. Everyone keeps telling me it will work out, and I'm sure it will once we get into a routine, but i still have anxiety over the fact that we don't have the routine yet.

So just be patient with me, because I'm trying to get our lives in order.  I am, however, really excited about dinner tonight - Im trying something new, and if it tastes good I'll post it.

I'm also really excited about working out tonight because I need an outlet for all my stress.  If I don't I think I might explode.  

Thats all... No big deal.  

Not Feeling Well

We have missed a couple of days because we have both been feeling under the weather.  School starts next week and we cant afford to get sick, hence the couple extra rest days.  So here we are.

Day 27:

I Love Sweets

This is a huge problem.  I crave sugar.  I definitely have been eating way too many this weekend.  I was craving A doughnut, just One.  So of course we go to get One, and there are no doughnut shops open.  We ended up at a grocery store buying a dozen of chocolate chocolate, Dunford Donuts.  Then we saw mini cookies for a dollar, and got those.  Then satan my husband, decides to grab our most favorite ice cream.  Of course as soon as i saw the ice cream i went to the dark side as well.  We did end up sharing these treats with my parents (its our anniversary, so they have been watching our kids).

 I really have to get this under control, its better than before, but i cant afford to undo all of my hard work.  I am not perfect, but I am still working out hard, I am allowed to slip every once in a while though, right?  I think so.  This is the difference between my diet, and me being on a diet.  There is always room for improvement.

Day 26:

Just ps, these pictures were taken at my parents house, where the lighting is (obviously) different than our apartment.  Wish i could see my muscles better.

So Sore!

I did 3 workouts for day 25.  Why?  Because, obviously, I'm crazy.  I did Shaun T's Upper Body Strength Training, Cardio Recover, and last Turbo Fire Abs 10.  David rides his bike to work most days, and it gives him an extra 30 minutes of workout a day.  So naturally i wanted to work out at least as much as him.  So i did the Upper Body Strength Training on my own, which was killer on my arms, and pecks.  Our workout for the day was Cardio Recovery, and then we decided to do Turbo Fire Abs 10 together after.  Cardio Recovery killed my legs, and Abs 10 killed my abs, literally almost went to burnout.  David and i were laughing after both workouts because we were hurting so good.  Its so much fun doing this with him, I wouldn't do it any other way.

For those of you curious how the green drink went yesterday, it went...not so good, for me.  It definitely wont be a drink i will share with you, without some further tweaking.  I may or may not have gagged.  Just saying.  But David didnt mind it.  He said it was better more watered down and actually took it to work today for lunch, again.  So it might have just been me and my huge aversion to raw celery.  But food posts are coming soon.

I know I'm not the only one who is in it to win it, so let me know what work outs you are doing, what you are struggling. We are doing this together.

Day 25:

David caught me mid blink, I'm not usually this creepy looking, not usually.

FitRadio Anybody?

A couple of days ago David and i decided to try listening to FitRadio while working out to Insanity. I love it.  Its nice to have up beat music to listen to, I push myself harder.  I am definitely a music person.  FitRadio is sweet 'cuz you dont have to put together play lists if you dont want to.  I just dont have the time right now to sit around and make my own work out playlists, hence FitRadio. You should try it.  Its awesome, there is an app for it (at least on iPhone) and you can also find it at fitradio.com.  You do have to make and account, but its free and awesome.

Also I said yesterday that we might be getting a new blender.  We did it!  Its so much fun!  We bought the Blendtec WildSide.  Yes it is expensive, and yes its awesome and worth the money.  The reason we decided on the Blendtec and not the Vitamix, is because well other than the fact that they both liquify everything, the Blendtec carrafe is larger and easier to clean.  We made our first green drink last night- its blended awesome-ly.  Now im more afraid of the drink than anything.  Its pretty much celery juice.  I am not a big fan of celery.  Ever since i was a kid i have had a hard time with it, the fibers and the flavor...just...ew.  So we found this drink and it has 5 stalks of celery. Of course we were like "Yeah lets try it!  Forget that it pretty much has a bushel of celery!"  Well now i regret our decision.  I'll let you know how it goes over.

Day 24:

Getting Back in the Groove

Everybody is starting to get back on schedule, the kids are still having a bit of a hard time going back to their normal nap times, but for the most part we are there.  More than being happy that kids are getting back on schedule, I'm really excited about food for this week.  I spent a lot of time yesterday making up a meal plan, and Im so excited.  We are going to be trying some new green smoothies, and i have some awesome dinners planned.  I dont think i can say how much i love food.  I also find it so so so fun to try and cook clean and allergy free for my family, and see what crazy things i can put together, without feeling like we are sacrificing on flavor.  Love.  Also, I'm so excited because David reasoned with Mr. Budget (Mr. Budget is very strict in our family) and i think we might be getting a new blender!  Our last large blender pooped out a couple weeks ago, and although we have a magic bullet, its great for protein shakes and really liquidy foods, it just doesnt do the trick with green smoothies.  I honestly dont like green smoothies.  If they are too thick or taste to gritty and chunky i cant get it past my gag reflex, even if the flavor is good.  So getting a new blender means well blended smoothies, which makes for a happier me.  So many fun things this week.  I'll let you know which blender we finally settle on, yay!  So excited (now i know im getting old because buying a blender is something i look forward to).

Day 23:

 

Diet Schmiet

Well, thanks to vacation, working out did not happen every day, and my diet was less than awesome.  So here we are at the start of the week and David and I have decided to redo week 4 of the program. Its awesome and it feels so good to be back on track with everything.  I love vacation and visiting family, but its always nice to come home and get schedules and diet back on track.  Im also glad to be home and drinking more water, I was thinking back on the week of vacation and i dont think i drank more than 64 oz of water the entire week.  No wonder i was always sluggish and tired.  Just p.s. I'm so sick of fast food.  I love me some Mexican and Italian food, but I love it more when its homemade, and I can control all the healthy stuff that goes into it.  Maybe i'll start putting some of my food ideas on here, I have to admit i have been pretty proud of myself for coming up with some awesome dinners that are quick and super healthy.  Im all about the quick put together dinners.  Anyway, ill stop rambling and get to the important stuff.  The pictures.

Day 22.

First Workout in Chicago

So these pictures were taken at 12:30 at night, outside, under a street light.  So they are kinda weird.  David tried to take pictures with the flash, but it washed everything out too much.  So here they are.  I like seeing my back muscles come out.

I will post comparison pictures tomorrow, its just too late, and i want to go to bed so im not cranky tomorrow.  I have absolutely no tolerance for loss of sleep.

Day 20:

Oh Man, Missed a Day

The day we missed working out was the day we actually had our flight to Chicago.  I was so stressed out about getting everyone for our family packed, not forgetting anything, and being ready to leave as soon as my husband got off work, that working out got left in the dust.  So no pictures for day 19, sadly.

I am not discouraged though, because life gets in the way sometimes.  Honestly, i did break a sweat packing for all 4 of us in my little family, while taking care of the little ones, and trying to clean up the house.  Previously, while trying to get on a workout regimen, I would get so down because I missed a day that i would end up stop altogether.  This time i have my best friend, my greatest supporter, my compliment giver, and ever loving coach- my husband- to help me get the motivation to keep going no matter what.

I think this experience (all 3 weeks, so far) has strengthened our marriage significantly.  We are happier to be around each other, we actually want to go out on dates.  I feel like since we are happier with ourselves, we are able to focus on each other and support each other more.  I also love my children more.  I love being a stay at home mom, the hardest, and most rewarding job I have ever had.  Every day there are two little ones that need me every moment of every day, no matter what I personally need, and before working out I would get so overwhelmed with the responsibility of raising these kids and finding the fine line between time for me and neglecting them.  Now i have to energy to be there for both of them, and not feel like i am going crazy.

I love my family.  Im glad i can be with them forever.  I know that without them I would not be complete, and even though it has been hard, I would not trade one single minute.  When they wake up in the morning everybody is getting big hugs and kisses from mommy.

Day 18

I wish I were more clever and could write good posts for all the days I have missed, but alas, it is late and I am worn out.

Day 18:

Visiting Family, and Playing Catch-up

I apologize for not posting since, i don't know, Tuesday.  It has been a crazy week.  I have been so stressed out trying to get our family ready to visit family.  We left Friday night and got to Chicago Saturday at about 1 in the morning.  It has been a crazy few days.  So i guess i will just put up the pictures from the days i didn't get to post.  We missed our workout on Friday, but definitely made up for it on Saturday.  My husband and I even got my brother-in-law, Jerry, to work out with us.  So fun.  The only thing i am worried about, being on vacation, is eating healthy.  Every time we come to visit there are always lots of treats and lots of food.  So that is the real challenge.

I do love seeing family though. We don't get to visit very often, and we miss them a lot.  So its great for our kids to see each other and finally get to play together.

Day 17:

Dont mind the bloated-ness.  When i get really stressed out, like when we fly with our kids, my body wigs out and i  hold on to water weight.