Anyone who really knows me, uh, my family, knows that i am a "perfectionist." I am a perfectionist in the way that i wont start something unless i know i will succeed 100%. There is no room for failure. However, if i do fail, wow, it is the end of the world. We are talking ice cream cartons filling the trash, chick flick watching, total depression. Now that is not a huge exaggeration, i do judge myself very harshly, and i have just started learning to not let my inner dialogue turn to the negative. I know, its pretty late to be learning that kind of thing, but better late than never. This is one trait that i do not want my children having. But i am discouraged because the scale hasnt moved and i am not particularly seeing HUGE results. Now obviously i have set too high of an expectation on myself, but, you know! I just want it to happen. I just, ugh, whatever, i need to let it go. Anyone else do that to themselves? I know its killing my motivation. I really have no words because i am so frustrated. Just get thin again! My goodness.
Well, now that i have had my pity party i will pick myself up and try again.
NEVER GIVE UP. LIFE IS HARD, SO BUCK UP AND BE STRONG.
Day 11:
*The photos look a bit more washed out than usual, we used my husbands iphone 4 to take the photos, so that could be it. Im not sure, but they havent been altered. Sorry if they are hard to see.
Don't get frustrated! I have seen tremendous changes in you in the last 9 days. You really look awesome! Getting fit takes some major dedication and I know you are a perfectionist to the hilt, but don't be too hard on yourself. You are absolutely beautiful and I think you are doing GREAT!!!
ReplyDeleteLove you!